had a dream last night. ran into jojo and he looked into my eyes and said, "i know what you're doing. i know you have hope for things to change, but right now is not the time." he continued saying that change isn't ready yet regardless of how much hope i have for it and the work that we're putting into it.

strange.

two days ago i mediated collectively with a group. we laid down and felt the ripples of vibrations enter our souls. as i was meditating i remember seeing blue to turquoise emanating from the top area. my body felt as if it was gluing itself to the ground and i was immobile. i imagined what was going on around me. someone walking around with bowls placing them near other folks. i saw us all laying there, bodies shifting and minds wai ndering. my head began to hurt, i wondered if it was because of my flat spot on my skull. i shifted my head to the right to a more comfortable position. i then began to see what looks like a body temperature scan of yellows, reds, and greens. the last thing i remember four orbs or what not were circling around me and then my old self popped up to just see what we looked like.

tuesday, i re-hydrated myself, went to the gym ran a mile and swam 3/4 of a mile. i then went to my parents' house to do laundry, talked about the philippines, and went off to dinner with pinays heart obama.

yesterday, i babysat the niece. we went to the gardens, she talked to the fish. we then drove down to clairemont to have lunch with mommy and the partner. went home and fell asleep. had kamp later that night.